Friday, March 7, 2008, 01:30 PM
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Well, Noah and I have had a busy week. We went to some outlets about 45 minutes from us to get some fun Easter presents for Noah and Daniel's Easter baskets. Usually Noah has a standing play group on Friday mornings with two other friends (we just switch who hosts it each week). But Noah got to have two play groups this week! He was pumped. This week was red letter for one other reason: NOAH WENT POOPIES ON THE POTTY!!! Posted by Administrator
Daniel asked him if he needed to go potty and sat him down. He just sat there in the bathroom singing the "Bob the Builder" theme song for about 5 minutes before Daniel said, "I think you're all done". But Noah insisted he was "not all done, need go potty!" So, Daniel left him there in the bathroom singing away at full volume. Then about 5 minutes later, Daniel heard the potty go off (our potty for Noah has a sensor in the bowl that senses when something is in there and it plays a little song). Daniel rushed in and found a huge log - good for Noah! (don't worry, as much as I would've liked to take a picture of the actual poopies for future generations and for your viewing pleasure, I was not there).
Here are some pictures of our outings and fun lately:
Noah laughing up a storm:
Noah hugging Audrey (one of his play group pals).
Noah still hugging Audrey ... she looks a little scared.
Noah and his BFF, Braeden eating some snacks on my messy, crummy table.
Me at 32 weeks, I am now officially, uncomfortably large.
Noah hugging his favorite stuffed animals ... Noah has lots of love to give.
OK, so this month for the little bookclub I'm apart of, we were reading "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho (a Brazilian author?). The book revolves around a discussion of one's Personal Legend. From what I can tell, a Personal Legend is a life goal one has that they continually strive for and are only happy while pursuing this thing. To me, it sounds like a goal.
I was sick and couldn't attend the bookclub meeting where they talked about this, but I talked to a friend of mine about it and the discussion everyone had about it at bookclub. Most of the women in the group talked about how they felt that teaching and motherhood were their goals or "legend" in life. I thought about this and I do not feel like motherhood is a great goal for me. I am not good at it, I do not generally enjoy it and I await the day for when my child is more self-sufficient and at school more hours of the day ... I know that sounds bad. Furthermore, I have had many goals in my life and have achieved many great things, but do not feel like those individual goals were the purpose, goal or legend of my life.
Something that I DID find rewarding and intriguing in my life was performing opera and I felt good at it too. I felt somewhat successful and it challenged me in an exciting way. When I was talking to Daniel about this I asked him what he thought about this. He said I was not a fun person to be around while doing an opera because I was so focused and concerned on the performance, I left little time or thought for him or other concerns. When I asked him whether he liked to be around me more as a struggling opera singer or a struggling mother, he said opera singer. But he followed that up with, "But if you're asking whether I would like an opera star wife or Noah, I would pick Noah any day".
I talked about this with my friend and she brought up a good thought that I guess someone discussed at bookclub. As mothers, our personal legend, what we leave behind and people remember us by our children. And what better legend could you leave behind? As an opera singer, I could do some pretty cool performances and have some neat experiences and probably leave behind a few recordings - but as a mother, I leave behind my kids. Noah is what he is, largely because I keep him alive each day and teach him and hang out with him. And with that thought, I cannot help but think of my mom.
I am what I am because of her (and dad, ofcourse). I learned how to work hard, I was driven to finish my bachelor's degree in music, I started a small business online, share my testimony and am a functioning member of my ward and serve others because of what I learned growing up.
So my next thought is: so what if you're one of those moms that does everything right with your kids and they still make poor decisions when they grow up. Is that then your legacy? A kid with issues left in the world, causing havok?? ... and the follow up thought to that is - do you decide to do something only because of the end result? Or is it more in the journey? (Daniel suggested this to me). You begin a goal, journey or challenge because you want to learn something or try something new, right? It's for the experience, right? So whether or not I leave behind some awesome kid that conquers the world, converts millions, finds the cure to cancer - or if I leave behind a total dud, it was the process I did it for. I learned something. I am better, smarter, more patient, more understanding ... right? Is that why we do what we do? Just thinking ...




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